Do you ever wonder why bad things happen? Even to the best of people? It is a very difficult question, especially when God asks you to walk through some very dark places. Our minds are just not capable of understanding His reasoning. I often think, He blesses us with the gift of discernment because He wants us to understand. Quite possibly, because He knows we will share our story to help someone else. There will be other times which we will never understand. It is during those times that I recall Hebrews 11:1, “Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.”
I believe God has a “Life Book” with each of our names in it. It’s filled with the best gifts and blessings any loving father would want for His children. Daily, God grabs his pencil, opens these books and starts to write. Yes, a pencil. A short little pencil with no eraser. Just like the ones you use when you keep score playing miniature golf, or the ones you see upright filling the holes in the church pews on Sunday mornings? God’s gracious loving hands have filled in every page from the day we were born until the day we leave this earth. He has carefully chosen each gift and blessing we are to receive in this lifetime with perfection. Take a minute and just imagine what He has written on the pages in your “life book.” Could they be filled with all of your dreams and aspirations? Sadly, we will never know everything that He has written on those pages.
I believe the reason God writes with a pencil is because the words are not meant to be changed. Our Father has written His own version of our lives, the way He sees it. How could anything be more perfect? Unfortunately, a pencil is not the only writing tool He uses. He also uses a black permanent marker. When God picks up the marker, a sense of sadness flashes across His loving face.
It is very simple. Each time we make decisions in our lives and think we know what’s best for us, God has to use a black marker to cover up all the plans He originally intended for our lives and replace them with our own story. The soft brown hue of the lead is now covered with a dark ink that now bleeds through the other pages. We will never know the depth of those gifts and blessings. Although, I do believe God uses every choice we make right or wrong as a lesson to be learned; I often wonder how many really wonder what’s on those pages. Would you think more about it if you knew you’d receive more blessings than lessons?
Sadly, I know I will never know everything God has written in my “life book.” I know it has many pages covered with black ink. Although I am far from perfect, I can ask Him for His wisdom and voice to lead me towards the blessing He has set out for my life so many years earlier.
The next time you see a pencil with no eraser, just remember….it’s meant to be that way!
Andrea (Andi), is an Author, musician, speaker and Founder of Transcended Ministries. She encourages women to rise above their circumstances and to trust in God's timing. She is involved in Celebrate Recovery and sings on the worship team at her church. Andi believes no hurt is ever wasted and she longs to bring a message of hope and healing as she shares her story of bold faith. Her story includes her struggle with control issues and co-dependency followed by a separation from her husband of twenty-five years. After a year of isolation and being on her own, she watched God bring transformation, healing, and reconciliation.